I’ll do whatever it takes to get her back.
She was mine and it was everything.
That month with her was as near to perfect as I’ve ever had in my whole f’ed up life.
But then I lost it all and I still don’t know why.
Though I suspect it had something to do with that rat b@stard, Bryce Gentry.
One thing I do know: I’m not letting go of Callie Cruise without a fight.
And it’s time for Gentry to finally pay for his many sins.
This book is a dark romance. It is book 2 of a 2-part Duet (the first book, CUT SO DEEP, is Available Now). This is an edited and expanded version of a novel that was formerly titled Please Me
My word if I thought book one was a dark erotic romance it has absolutely nothing on this book, but my God it is such a good book. I literally could not put this book down and was reading it into the early hours of the morning, following all the twists and turns and hoping that it will end the way I am hoping for.
This book starts four months after the cliff hanger twists and turns that the end of the first book featured. It starts up following Callie and how she is coping following her abuse at the hands of Bryce Gentry and the loss of her little boy Charlie at the hands of her ex and his wife. She continues to work at CubeThink (the company run by her ex Jackson Vale) but has not spoken to him in four months. Her whole outlook on life has changed and work is her whole life apart from Friday evening which is the one night that she gets supervised access with her son at a child psychologist office. Having to watch the effect that being separated from her and living with strangers is having on Charlie and then having to say bye to him when their time is up literally breaks Callie more every time. She is also feeling helpless and empty following her sexual abuse and she wants to take back some control over her body and her emotions and as a result she puts herself into dangerous sexual situations where she is able to take control. But afterwards she is just left feeling even more disgusted with herself and loses even more of her confidence. Her relationship with her sister is at an all-time low as Shannon blames her sister for the loss of Charlie and doesn’t believe that she genuinely did not do the drugs that resulted in her failing the court drug test. Never has Callie been more alone, but all is not as it seems.
Jackson has been watching Callie self-destruct from afar for the past four months and it has broken his heart. He knows that something must have happened with Bryce when Callie went to quit but he has no idea what it is, but knowing how Bryce operates and how he treats women he knows it will be bad. Callie agreed to let Jacksons lawyers keep working for her to win back Charlie but he agreed to stay away. Jackson has an overwhelming need to protect and heal Carrie which is why he hires security to watch her from afar and make sure she is safe during her dangerous sexual exploits. But after watching her self-destruct for too long he orchestrates a meeting in a club run by his friend and he stops Callie from having sex with yet another bloke. But this is the start of him working his way back into Callie’s life and starting his journey of winning her over. He decides that the only way for her to truly feel like she has control back is to introduce to her an environment where she can safely explore her sexual needs while she keeps the control.
If I thought the first book featured twists and turn, it has nothing on this book and sadly we have not seen the last of Bryce Gentry who makes his presence known again in this book. He is determined to use Jackson’s feelings for Callie as a way to bring him down and needs the plans for Jacksons company drone. He waits for Callie and Jackson to start working things out and get their relationship back on track before he makes it clear to Callie that he expects her to commit corporate espionage and steal Jackson’s company drone codes. Initially she has no intention of going against Jackson and the company that she has grown to love, but Bryce knows everybody’s weak spot and for Callie it is her son. He threatens her with blackmail material that will ensure she never wins back custody of her son and so Callie has a decision to make, does she break Jackson’s heart and ruin his company but win back her son or does she choose Jackson?
This book is such a rollercoaster of emotion and at the start of the book my heart broke for Callie and I could feel her pain. She lashed out in such a way that I think, for me as someone who has never experienced the kind of trauma that Callie has been through, I found it incredibly difficult to relate to her behaviour. But at the same time it did not feel fake and I felt like every one of her actions had a purpose, whether that was to forget or make herself suffer. But when she finally let Jackson back into her life she started to heal and that was all down to him. My oh my, what can I say about Jackson other than I think everyone should have a Jackson in their life. He is beautifully broken but he wants to forget about that so that he can help Callie to heal. The love, support and caring that he shows Callie is so powerful and beautiful and you can’t help but be drawn to him even further. Then throw into the mix the fact that he is gorgeous and a deliciously dirty Dom in the bedroom makes him one of my favourite male characters. The sex scenes are just what you would hope they are after what Callie has been through and Jackson adapts to help her put some control back in her life. He has spent his whole life as the Dom and giving her the power and becoming her Sub to give her what she needs during sex is so sexy. This book dives into the underground world of BDSM and we are introduced to Dom/Sub play and pain. The scenes are dark and dirty and so sexy to read, it literally had me drooling in places.
Overall, I really enjoyed this book and wow was the ending satisfying. I knew from half way through book one how I wanted this book to end and even though it ended how I expected it to the path it took to get there was very unexpected. To say that it features twists and turns does not do the book justice. I think the only way I can sum up this review is to say go out there and read book one and book two because you will not be disappointed. I know I wasn’t! These books introduced me to Stasia Black as I had not read any of her books before I stumbled on these, but I know for sure that I will be going and looking at her back catalogue and seeing if I can find a book just as good as or maybe even better than these.